Well the sun is going down and the geese that frequent our back yard at this time of year have gone down river for the evening. They are such strange creatures, they always leave every night when the sun has just disapeared from sight and return every morning to wake you with the awful aggressive noises they make. During the few winter months we are graced with there presence if you use our back door you get chased away and hissed or honked at and you also have to be careful not to tread in copious amounts of goose shat they have deposited all over the path . It's still nice to have them around though, they are very funny things.
I am up and down like a brides nightie at the moment, today I am feeling sad, peak and troughs, thats always how it goes but the last few weeks they have been quite extreme. Being the eternal optimist though at least I know that tommorow will be brighter as today I've hit the bottom. This morning I decided to stop writing this blog all together, having strangers reading my thoughts seemed altogether too scary. I'm quite an introverted person and I don't express much of what I've been expressing here to the people around me, but I guess I thought better of it, I enjoy the outlet and I think it's good therapy. Last night I ran out of a pub full of people I know in tears, today I feel a complete twat, I knew I shouldn't have gone out, I was in no mood for it but I thought I was doing someone a favour, when I discovered my bike had a puncture I should have read the signs and not just pumped it up and carried on out. Anyway drinking is the worst thing to do in the mood I was in and the whole night was doomed from the word go and today my original sadness is just made worst by a hangover and feeling a fool. Will I ever learn?
On a brighter note, oh sorry I don't have one, ah well, sorry to be depressing, maybe tommorow will bring great new opportunities and we will get out of this fucking rut we're in! There is always hope.
PS This was my 50th post!